healing wound year one.

yesterday. april 23. one year since we lost our baby.

i remember everything about last year like it was yesterday. the wounds are still healing and they always will be.

last spring, our hearts were full of wishes, hopes, dreams and imagining what our sweet baby would be like and who he/she would look like. then, our hearts felt the worst pain and we were faced to deal with the fact that those wishes, hopes, and dreams wouldn't be a reality.

i mourn for that sweet baby every day. i know that one day we will meet and be introduced by our heavenly father. what better way for us to meet for the first time?

until our reunion day, i get to celebrate life with the birth of our son in june. god has blessed us with this sweet child in the midst of our grieving. god's plan is unfolding. i have no doubt that there will be a part of the baby we lost in the baby we welcome in just two short months.

after all, our wishes, hopes and dreams are coming true. it may not be in the way we had planned or imagined, but it's happening june 17th.

32

                        Baby BOY DeSalvo Update - Week 32

How Far Along: 32 weeks, 1 day

Total Weight Gain: I think I am up to 28 pounds gained now.

Maternity Clothes: Of course! I am loving the occasional warm days we are having that allow me to wear Maxi skirts and dresses.

Favorite Moment This Week: Last Saturday was our family shower and we were overwhelmed by the generosity of our sweet families. It was so nice to see everyone and celebrate our sweet boy.

Gender: Bambino

Movement: Yes-he is a mover and a shaker.  I have enjoyed watching my belly take on new shapes as he tries to get comfortable.

Food Craving: The same as previous weeks, but tonight I wanted potato chips and mayo. Yesterday, everyone gave me trouble for mixing BBQ sauce in my potato salad...YUM!

What I Miss: Moving around quickly and being able to bend over to pick things up, tie my shoes and put on my socks. I'm still loving this whole pregnancy thing!

Sleep: Overall, I am still sleeping really well. Over the last week I have started getting leg cramps which wake me up, then I realize I have to go to the restroom which then causes me to get out of bed.

What I Am Looking Forward To: We are going on a tour of the Maternity Ward on Saturday. We have visited one baby there so it was nice to see it from that aspect, but I am looking forward to seeing EVERYTHING on Saturday!

Symptoms: There's nothing new particularly. Today at my doctor's appointment I asked about my left ankle which has been more swollen than the right and pretty painful. The doctor said that it was either a sprain or a blood clot. So, she sent me straight to radiology to have an ultrasound done of the veins in my legs. NO BLOOD CLOT! So, it is a sprained ankle which means rest, elevation, ice and keeping it wrapped/braced. If it doesn't get better in a couple of days, I am to go and see my primary care doctor to see what she thinks.

Belly Button: STILL trying to make up its mind.

Next Dr. Appoinment: May 6th! At that appointment we will schedule my ultrasound to check on my placenta previa and determine whether I can birth naturally or if I will require a C-section.

He sure is beginning to POP out!

thirty one.

Baby BOY DeSalvo - Week 31

How Far Along: 31 weeks, 2 days

 

Total Weight Gain: I would have to guess that by now I am between 25 and 30 pounds gained

 

Maternity Clothes: Absolutely!

 

Favorite Moment This Week: There are always so many great moments that it is hard to choose just one, so here are my TWO favorite moments of the week. Last Saturday we went to my Dad's family reunion. It was at Boulevard Brewery and there was a great crowd that attended. It was so fun to see everyone and to show off my baby bump! My other favorite moment this week just happened a day or two ago. While sitting on the couch, I looked down at my belly and it looked like a cone. Baby boy was all on one side being cozy. It was so fun to see and it's fun to play with him.

 

Gender: BOY!

 

Movement: He is VERY active. Between 6 and 7 p.m. are the most active and early, early morning.

Food Cravings: The only new one is SALAD. I had a salad every day over the weekend and again on Tuesday night at Small group.

What I Miss: Same as previous weeks, but I am really missing being able to do things around the house without becoming totally exhausted.

Sleep: It continues to be hit or miss. Some nights I sleep soundly the entire night while others I wake up numerous times to use the restroom. Monday night I went to bed at 8:30 p.m. and slept until 7:00 a.m. It was glorious!

What I Am Looking Forward To: Saturday is our family shower. I am really looking forward to spending time with everyone and celebrating our sweet baby boy.

Symptoms: I am beginning to feel more and more tired. My legs and feet are becoming more sore by the end of the day, but other than that, no complaints!

Belly Button: Still half in and half out...

Next Dr. Appt: Next Tuesday, April 23rd

31 weeks down, only 9 to go!

30.

Baby BOY DeSalvo @ 30 Weeks

How Far Along: 30 weeks, 1 day

Total Weight Gain: I believe I'm around 25 pounds or so. I gained 2 pounds in the last two weeks, 1 pound per week which is the rate they prefer me to be growing. 

Maternity Clothes: Yes! I am still able to wear some regular shirts and tank tops.

Favorite Moment This Week: I had Baby Shower #1 last Saturday. Baby DeSalvo is so blessed. Joe and I are incredibly thankful and blessed to have such phenomenal people in our lives. We are so thankful to have so many great things for our baby boy. Joe and I also decided that the baby bedding is something we wanted to purchase ourselves. We went on Sunday afternoon to Pottery Barn Kids and got his bedding and came home, through it in the washing machine and then made his bed. Putting the room together and sorting out his new things is another reality check and makes it seem even more real! 

Gender: ALL Boy! He is so active!

Movement: Yes! I love every single movement! He is so active and I am starting to be able to distinguish what body part is which. I've also been able to "play" with the baby by pushing on him and he will push back. He's probably annoyed it, but I love interacting with him! 

 

Food Cravings: Nothing new, but I am still LOVING Chipotle. I really craved this at the beginning of my pregnancy and am now craving it again. 

What I Miss: Sleeping through the night and being able to get things done around the house at a pace I am happy with.

Sleep: Still hit or miss, but I am getting up 2-3 time to use the restroom which makes it difficult to sleep soundly.

What I am Looking Forward To: I was looking forward to my massage today, so I will put that. It was phenomenal! I feel like a million bucks!

Symptoms: My feet/ankles got puffy and swollen for the first time last week. My knees, shins and feet are really sore, but other than that I really don't have any complaints! 

Belly Button: Still trying to decide if it wants to pop out or not, but it's definitely on its way to pop out.

Next Dr. Appt: Two weeks from today.

30 weeks, Royals home-opener Spirit Day at school!

Mondays. Week 29.

Mondays are my new favorite day. Monday is the day my baby grows another week older. Monday is the day I get my email and app updates on what he is doing and how is growing this week. So, I bring you...Week 29!

Baby BOY DeSalvo - Week 29

How Far Along: 29 weeks

Total Weight Gain: As of my last appointment last Monday, I had gained 24 pounds total. Now, with the Easter holiday and consumption of lots of delicious food, I am a little apprehensive about next week's appointment. 

Maternity Clothes: Absolutely! Leggings and dresses are my new favorite and I am ready for full time Spring weather!

Favorite Moment This Week: This week, I feel like baby and I are bonding more and more. I've been making more of an effort to relax in the morning before going to work. When I wake up, I lay in bed for a while talking to baby and savoring every movement his little body makes. It's a special time, a time where it's just him and I.

Gender: BOY - I think we might have finalized a name, but I don't know that we're 100% ready to commit to it. 

Movement: He is a busy little body. Hiccups are pretty much a daily occurrence as are rolls, jabs and kicks. 

Food Cravings: Milk, ice cold water, chocolate of any kind, Eggs, Bananas, yogurt, toast

What I miss: Again, I can't emphasize how much I am enjoying pregnancy, but there are several things I'm missing such as; sleeping on my back, being able to do everything I want to around the house without being completely wiped out and having to stop, tying my own shoes and moving around quickly.

Sleep: It's hit or miss for sure, but mostly good. When I am asleep, I'm out. I get up during the night to use the restroom and it is becoming harder to fall back asleep.

What I am looking forward to: Seeing what baby boy looks like, who he looks like.

Symptoms: Nothing new really, but my body is doing a really good job of telling me when to SLOW down and relax. I think I am beginning to get better about listening to it when it's trying to tell me that! 

Belly Button: Same, but any day I am expecting to wake up and have it completely out. 

  

Next Dr. Appointment: Monday, April 8th! 

He's front and center! 

twenty eight.

Baby BOY DeSalvo - Week 28

How Far Along: 28 weeks, 1 day

Total Weight Gain: At my doctor's appointment yesterday, I was right at 24 pounds gained. 

Maternity Clothes: Yes! I always look forward to putting on my sweats on at the end of the day and I am excited for it to FINALLY warm up so I can wear stretchy skirts and dresses!

Favorite Moment This Week: He has been moving a lot this week, but today was by far the neatest! During dismissal at school, I felt the baby's first case of hiccups! It was the coolest sensation ever. 

Movement: I'm definitely beginning to notice a pattern and food ALWAYS gets him moving! 

Food Cravings: ICE cold Milk, pineapple, scrambled eggs, toast, Mexican food (Chipotle and Jose Peppers)

What I miss: Being able to do anything in a hurry, walking up the stairs without being out of breath and sleeping on my back. I am still thoroughly enjoying every moment of carrying this sweet baby!

Sleep: It depends on the night, but usually there's a lot of tossing and turning around 5:00 a.m. until I get up. Luckily when I get up to use the restroom around 2:00 or so, I don't have a hard time falling back asleep. I'm ready for it to be warm so that Joe and I can start talking walks before bed time.

What I am looking forward to: Continuing nesting, of course and obviously holding my sweet baby in just a few short months! I also can't wait to celebrate with family and dear friends at my upcoming showers.

Symptoms: Nothing out of the ordinary, but I have been getting back pain in the night. I started sleeping with a heating pad on my upper back and that has helped tremendously!

Belly Button: It's still half in and half out, I'm ready for it to make up its mind!

Next Dr. Appointment: We had an appointment yesterday afternoon and now our appointments are every two weeks! We go back on April 8th. I was measuring at 30 weeks yesterday so we will see what I'm measuring at in two weeks. They will want to do another ultrasound if I continue to measure larger than 2 weeks.

Baby sure is making his presence known! 

Baby's room is almost complete! We just need to hang some things on the wall, get bedding on the bed and organize his closet...then this room will be ready for our little guy to come home to.

veinte y siete . march 18. 2013

How far along? 27 weeks! 

How big is baby? According to the app on my phone, he is 14.41 inches long and weighs in at 1.93 pounds! 

Total weight gain/loss: At my last appointment, I had gained 20 pounds, I'm going to guess I'm at about 25 or so now...will know for sure next Monday.

Maternity clothes? Definitely! 

Sleep: A little more difficult, but I still can't really complain! 

Best moment this week: Last Friday and Saturday, Joe, Uncle Cameron and Aunt Jessica painted the nursery! It's beginning to feel even more real now as we prepare the place our little man will be living in! 

Movement: VERY active! If you look closely at my belly, you can actually see him move! 

Food cravings: The same but Chipotle (I've had their tacos twice this weekend), dark chocolate, bananas, pineapple, yogurt and ICE cold water! 

Food Aversions: None that I can think of. 

Gender: BOY!

Labor Signs: None right now! 

Pregnancy Symptoms:  I'm beginning to feel larger and larger and more aware of the fact that I am continuously growing. I'm definitely having a more difficult time sleeping, but again, that could be much worse. Bending down to pick things up is more difficult and I become winded pretty easily (I'm not sure if that is all pregnancy or asthma, probably a combination.)

Belly Button in or out? Half in and half out.

What I miss: Nothing really, I am loving being pregnant! 

What I am looking forward to: Finishing touches on the nursery and celebrating baby boy at my upcoming showers.

Upcoming appointments/events:  Going to see Dr. S on Monday!

Happy St. Patrick's Day! 

Baby room colors - "Notre Dame" and "Schnooner"

Almost finished product! 

Spring Break = 1 WHOLE week to nest!